{Recap} Open Mic Night

Words cannot describe! The huge ordeal that I go through just to sing one 3 minute song. It's kind of ridiculous. If you read the previous post about all that I do before a performance, you would see it seems kind of normal. I left out the excruciating part about my anxiety. Ever since I can remember I've dealt with the stage fright of course. Like any normal performer, I guess. But ever since 2009 I believe, my anxiety has amplified tremendously. Before it would just be butterflies in my stomach, get a little shaky and what not. Now it's a burning in my chest, and my stomach. And I will literally sit in front of the mirror giving myself a pep talk.

"You can do this! You've done it a million times before! You got this, just go out there and be yourself"

I say it over and over and over again, and then I pray.

Not only that but I was driving to Cambridge which is pretty much Boston. By myself nonetheless, no husband to chauffeur me around.

I ended up being pushed to the bottom of the list. So I was close to the last one to perform. I felt comfortable by then. It was a good crowd, a very encouraging crowd. So I went up there and did it, and I remembered everything words, cues, etc.

Everyone did original music, covers, and spoken word {poetry readings}. I love being around all this talent. Everyone encourages each other. All those times they talk about musicians feeling like outcasts in life. Until they go to an arts school, or find other talented people to be around. They weren't lying. You really do feel like you are at home, like you belong! :)

I did hear rumors about doing this open mic night once a month. So feel free to join us next time at the Ryles Jazz Club in Cambridge, Ma!

Photo Credit: Jenny Courtney Photography

...........And now here's me! :)